Fool's dream

Letting your imagination run wild is the worse thing to do. i was a fool to think things would be this great, overcoming so many hurdles just to be each other's half. All a girl has is her manipulation, take that away and she is naked, in front of you with nothing to fall back on but the depths of despair.

Uncertainty.... frail and vulnerable. I am naked and bruised.

"don't do anything stupid" i hear?

who understands me but my own mind fabricating lies and retelling a story only to emotionally stab me more. pain. this is my way of getting over it.

except now i gotta think about pole....how am i to do my lifts and hold my body weight up with an open sore....

thank goodness for pole...

one of my idols....

so my ex called the other day....

has ur ex ever called at the perfect moment in time when your all sad and alone and no one to turn to? it was like he sensed i needed somebody to confide in and lean on. do you ever think maybe there might be a reuniting of hearts once again? too bad i wasn't in the mood for his confiding and cut him off before he dug too deep and found out the truth. stricking when im vulnerable and no i have never thought of reuniting with him coz the past stays in the past and you cherish each day with the people you have around you coz you never know when they'll leave your life forever...

those movies...

have you ever been in a situation which was so much like a movie scene where your bawling your eyes out on the couch, hurt by love and frightened about the future or a picture perfect moment in the dark infront of a lake with the cameras circling around you as you stare into the one you love. Movies and series are based on real life experiences and they replay the best or the worst of us. It makes you feel not so lonely when your in those situations knowing its happened to others but also kodak moments aren't as special until you reminisce.